Still struggling.

[Socratic Meth Head]

I've tried this before with HOCD and Harm OCD. If I were to say "I don't have OCD" then the thoughts say "Well, if you don't have OCD then what causes the thoughts?" and I get anxiety. HOCD and Harm OCD have mostly gone away, but this doubt about religion is here. I get anxiety about becoming a Christians or a Muslim.

Well, I mean everyone has ocd thoughts to an extent. Especially in this modern society where an annoying pretentious level of trivial details seems to be admired. I've had to substitute alcohol with MANY other things and some arguably not even healthy things but still less consequential than booze.  So what can you substitute OCD with that'll will make you modestly happier?

Yes, everyone has displeasent thoughts to an extent, the difference is how my quality of life is diminished. I've yet to try substituting OCD with anything else, because it seems a little placebo. If I had to substitute OCD with anything, it would be something like GAD. Slightly better, but still not good.

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I was in the shower and I really got to thinking about how I'm an atheist and I got this feeling like God was displeased, I couldn't shake it, I have yet to take my medicine lately but it isn't working. I am still an atheist and the feeling has subsided but I still get that tug every now and again... I'm back to obsessing, an otherwise fine day has been tarnished.