RE: Still struggling.
March 2, 2016 at 6:41 pm
(This post was last modified: March 2, 2016 at 6:44 pm by Socratic Meth Head.)
I've kinda gone on a train of thoughts.
My brother said something that rang in my head. "You're just rebelling against mom, it's just a phase".
I thought "Is it?" I thought back to the exact moment I became an atheist. I pulled an all-nighter and I was watching Richard Dawkins on Youtube for about 2 weeks then. I came to the conclusion that Evolution explained far more that creation and I didn't believe. No doubt after that. A week later I got anxiety/doubt whatever you wish to call it. I came here. Now, I debate mom. I've kinda shifted opinions politically. I'm a bit more liberal, my entire family is very very conservative.
His "Phase" of rebellion/atheism happened when he was 15-16. I'm 14 now. Similar time. He says I give him the exact arguments he gave to me 2 years earlier. (What I mean by phase here is him stopping belief in a god, and then resuming it.)
I've always doubted god before this. I just attributed it to satan. After I made deals with Satan with absolutely zero result, and I yelled at God with no emotional reaction. I felt like I didnt believe, but that this doubt is my OCD playing with my head.
I've always been horribly indecisive. I will tear myself to pieces trying to find out which opinion I have. Example being "I like pizza." "Do I really?" "I think so" Then it goes on for 2 minutes and it ends up with "I don't know where I stand on pizza". This isn't a specific example though.
I resent my family because of them not letting me go see my therapist and my brother constantly pissing me off. Is this just teenage rebellion or whatever you wish to call it, or is it not?
He also said to me yesterday before my appointment "I know you don't really not believe in a god because your recommended videos are full of anti-theist videos. (Which sounds pretty stupid but I don't know.)
My brother said something that rang in my head. "You're just rebelling against mom, it's just a phase".
I thought "Is it?" I thought back to the exact moment I became an atheist. I pulled an all-nighter and I was watching Richard Dawkins on Youtube for about 2 weeks then. I came to the conclusion that Evolution explained far more that creation and I didn't believe. No doubt after that. A week later I got anxiety/doubt whatever you wish to call it. I came here. Now, I debate mom. I've kinda shifted opinions politically. I'm a bit more liberal, my entire family is very very conservative.
His "Phase" of rebellion/atheism happened when he was 15-16. I'm 14 now. Similar time. He says I give him the exact arguments he gave to me 2 years earlier. (What I mean by phase here is him stopping belief in a god, and then resuming it.)
I've always doubted god before this. I just attributed it to satan. After I made deals with Satan with absolutely zero result, and I yelled at God with no emotional reaction. I felt like I didnt believe, but that this doubt is my OCD playing with my head.
I've always been horribly indecisive. I will tear myself to pieces trying to find out which opinion I have. Example being "I like pizza." "Do I really?" "I think so" Then it goes on for 2 minutes and it ends up with "I don't know where I stand on pizza". This isn't a specific example though.
I resent my family because of them not letting me go see my therapist and my brother constantly pissing me off. Is this just teenage rebellion or whatever you wish to call it, or is it not?
He also said to me yesterday before my appointment "I know you don't really not believe in a god because your recommended videos are full of anti-theist videos. (Which sounds pretty stupid but I don't know.)
