Thought crime

[Losty]

See here is where I am stuck.

But what would you have me change? I can't help the thoughts that pop into my mind. I don't want to have them or think they're funny but I don't know how I'm supposed to have control over that.

Would I have me be cruel in order to avoid hypocrisy? I don't think I can do that either. Being mean to someone is definitely not staying true to who I am. It would hurt them and that would hurt me.

So I don't know...

Lol!!  It's almost as if you have a pathological need to think stuff like that. I still don't understand how people actually think it's normal. Either way as long as you don't actually act on those thought I guess you're a nicer person that 40% of the population. But I would still put in effort to atleast try and avoid those thoughts. Not only will it give you peace of mind it'll make you a better human being than what you are right now. Then EVERYBODY will like you and you will be president. Then you can give free cheetos to EVERYONE! But I'll love you regardless.

So basically you're being a sarcastic jerk to make me feel worse? That's okay pool. I really don't mind.

I've always known that these thoughts are normal, but it doesn't stop me from feeling guilty about having them. It doesn't stop me from constantly analyzing my thoughts and re thinking them, and wondering why I thought them in the first place when I also think that deep down I don't really feel that way. Most of the time I'm fine. Except for the times I let it spin around in my mind so much wondering why I think things and wondering if there's something wrong with me and wondering if I think worse thoughts than most people do. It drives me a little nuts sometimes.

@everyone else, thank you for posting all this information I think it really helps.