Ive lost all trust for my mom

[SteelCurtain]

All you can do is get yourself educated - education is freedom. Do you have any plans for college?

I can't second this enough, GD. I know it seems like a long way off, but college is your ticket to ride. Even if they send you to a Christian school, it's probable that you will actually get a better education overall than the public school system there. I know that public school system, my little brother and his wife were teachers there until two weeks ago. Private schools, even though they are peddling bullshit, still present an awesome opportunity. Really, biology is the only place where you'll be behind, but a high schooler's biology textbook in the American South is pretty lacking no matter what school you go to.

Take AP classes where you can. Christian school or not, AP classes are nationally organized. If you take AP Biology, the course cannot be accredited unless it uses the national textbook/curriculum.

Get great grades. Every day, motivate yourself to be awesome by imagining that day you are packing your bags to go to college. If your parents won't help with tuition, stay in state. There are amazing universities in your state. I'd stay away from the big one near you, because 1) too close, and 2) Go Gators. *chomp But there are other state schools in which financial aid, Pell Grant, and in state lottery fund scholarships make it so even if you had to take loans for all 4 years, you'd only be $15k or so in student loan debt. You'll be miles ahead of your peers. Do well enough in high school and apply for scholarships out the ass, and you could put a huge dent in that number, if not erase it completely. I know kids at the school I'm at that don't even have to have a job because they have scholarships that make them a comfortable living semester to semester.

Taking that level of independence and control of your future will do wonders for your self esteem, too.

You got this.