Ive lost all trust for my mom

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I don't know exactly why she blocked the internet, but my guess was all nighters. The issue isnt so much the internet, it was the lying that made me mad. Even how she so prided herself in telling the truth. One of her arguments was "I never lied to you, so why would I lie to you about god?" and could you rephrase "circumvented her will"? Im not sure I understand.

I only remember 1 event if chest pain that came before this one, and I recieved no diagnosis because I wasnt taken to the doctor that time either. I told the school nurse, she called, mom said it was probably a pulled muscle and she went on her way. I think it was maybe 7th grade. I'm in 9th now. I wasnt okay with their lack of action, why would I make a post if I was? My own lack of action, I cant drive, Cant schedule an appointment (you have to be over 18 if my memory serves me well), I couldnt get anyone to take me, and by the time I finally did the pain went away and has stayed away for a few days now (with one exception), as for not calling 911, I wasnt sure that it was necessary. Plus I was scared to call, Ive kinda been raised to think to never call 911 unless you absolutely need to right this moment. I didnt think that was the case, I was just worried about it.

It is a legitimate complaint to say Im not giving their side, but I dont know their side, I dont live their lives, I'd have to take a somewhat reasonable guess.
Its their previous actions that I deem them to be acting unreasonably. Like, for example, them telling me its jesus knocking on my heart when I told them it hurts and I want to see a doctor. She acts of the best interest of her religion, and I act in my own best interest.

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I think you know exactly why she blocked the internet.

Are you telling me that you have never lied to her? And have told her that she is wrong for not believing your lie? At age 15 my guess is yes. Were you constantly on her to get your way and telling you a lie was an easy for her to shut you up? Her telling you a lie was wrong. If you have lied to her I'm not sure how much sympathy you deserve.

Circumventing her will: You have found a way to do something that she has told you not to do. i.e. Mom: don't be on the computer after 10PM. You: OK Mom: (Waits till Mom is asleep) You: Login!

So nothing happened with the first episode of chest pain. Now, nothing happened with the second.

I thought you were home schooled?

Your lack of action: You can't walk, go to a neighbors, pick up a phone and call something other than 911, i.e. your doctors office? Your excuses are weak. We all encouraged you to act.

Re: "I act in my own best interest": You did not act at all. At age 15 I'm not sure you always know what your best interest is.

Each time you had chest pain, please describe the preceding incident/prior 4 hours. What lead up to the pain? Were you running? Climbing stairs? Arguing?

I'm not necessarily defending your mom or her actions. I think there is still something additional going on.