Escape from hell before death

[Defender]

Does not sound like you are willing to put forth the effort to get out, as daunting a task as that may be. Who knows, in the same situation I may not be willing to put forth the effort. 

I kept trying and I'm still trying by the way. I'm bidding on hopes more than reality in fact. I'm doing the impossible here to open at least one door to be out. I might head to New Zealand as I don't need to obtain visa for that country. Not so sure about that place though and I don't know if we have Kiwis here. 

Are there not others in your same/similar situation that get out?

I could be the first one. It's a closed society, there's no such thing where people go out speaking against Islam in public. I tried looking for atheist or secular organization that help people in my situation, I found none. Not even secretly operated organization.