Not every pedophile is a rapist.

[vorlon13]

Over the years there've been a few turn up at 12 Steppers.

One I encountered seemed to be not specifically inclined to kids so much as just not selective at all, if that makes sense. If someone seemed available, he'd go for it. Got in big trouble when one turned out to be under 12.


I've noted before, even as a kid myself, I've always been attracted/interested to the older boys. In my own class at grade school, my lack of interest in my male classmates left me defaulting to playing with the girls. Seems bizarre now to me, BTW. And my fascination, even in 3rd grade of the junior high boys was intense, I just didn't have access to them.

(BTW, I hated the junior high girls during those days. Maybe even then, I recognized the junior high boys growing interest in them and was feeling some jealousy ?)

I kinda wonder, what if one of the older boys had noticed my interest in him?

A significant exception in my life, Brian, while significantly younger than myself chronologically (24 to 33, m/l) my feelings were tempered by his mature attitude and demeanor stemming from his HIV diagnosis, IOW, Brian acted (and was) more mature than I was. And additionally, to me, his bravery and confidence 'read' to me as masculine, another attractant.

So, where I'm headed with all this in regards to pedophilia, I'm probably lucky to never have encountered one as a kid (and one with the opportunity to explore my attractions). I'm puzzled frankly, recalling being attracted to, for instance, Sandy on the show Flipper, but considering at the time that his current 2016 countenance would not have been as appealing to me in '63 as the kid on the TV show was, but now it's the other way round.

(BTW, yes, I'm aware the actor Luke Halpin is gravely ill these days, and it's quite upsetting. I'm not citing my attraction to him flippantly, I just have clear and vivid memories of the old TV show and my intense reaction to his character)

This is a really complicated subject. As for others with inappropriate attractions, how 'appropriate' was it for me as a third grader to want to go in the locker room with the junior high boys and watch ?


BTW, anyone here surprised your vorlon was a queer little kid ? Not only am I lucky I didn't encounter a pedophile, I was probably also extremely lucky the dense adults watching over me as I grew up never caught on and sent me to a shrink. How would that have gone in the 1960s ??