Seriously, here's my deal.

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I have serious social anxiety problems.

I have tried dealing with it, but others just keep telling me to get over myself and deal with people I encounter.

It is never as easy as just getting over one's self.

I have had numerous jobs in my thirty seven years on this planet, and every job turns out the same. I end up informing the customers of precisely what they need to hear rather than what they want to hear.

I do retail because it is easy and I have no qualifications in anything else.

I am always unemployed while my very understanding boyfriend takes care of me, but times eventually become tough and I try again and again and always tell those idiots what's on my mind.

Sometimes I feel as though I need to speak to someone professionally about this, but it is not as though professional help is free. And I cannot afford to pay for professional help.

Then other times I realize that I am perfectly fine as I am and that it is the rest of the world that needs to wake up.

I know that I need to speak to someone with qualifications, but I cannot pay that individual anything. I have searched the internet, but I cannot find anything.

What would be your opinion as to what I should do?