Matter and energy can be past-eternal

[brewer]

I'll tell you why. And I mean this very seriously. When I was a child my mother and father would beat me. I got it the most from my father though. This has created a strange relationship between myself and my parents. On one hand, I love them because they're my parents while on the other, I hate them because they used to beat me.

I'm also angry about my acne. I have a ton of acne, all over my face, despite me being an adult. Why? I wash my face twice a day, use toner, etc., and I still get acne. It's disgusting and makes the women run like hell, which brings me to my next point.

I have a small penis. It's not a micropenis (thank Dawkins), but it's still very small. So even on the off chance I'm able to seduce a woman and bring her back to my parent's place (I still live with my parents as an adult), they laugh and run away at the sight of my small penis. I'll never be able to please a woman. Do you know what that feels like? Probably not. Your penis is at least average, maybe even large.

What's more, I'm an adult (19) who is still going to middle school. I've been held back a few times because I lack the motivation to do homework. That's why I kept capitalizing Computer Scientist. You're not the retard. I am. And my parents don't help or seem to care. They think I'm stupid. Instead of providing support and motivation, they yell at and threaten me.

There... you happy?

"There... you happy?" is a bit passive aggressive but I'm not surprised based on your past behavior.

You say I should take you "very seriously" but I don't think you can fault me if I have some doubts. You have demonstrated manipulative behavior in other posts. Part of me is wondering if this is yet another attempt at manipulation. I'll consider the accuracy of this post when compared to future posts.

Can you tell us why your parents beat you? What was their motivation? 

Acne is very treatable. Washing your face twice a day may not be enough. I suggest that you consult your primary physician or a dermatologist. If you're using an OTC acne treatment (allopathic, not naturopathic) product and it is not working you need to try others. Not all of them work the same for/on each individual. A new product hit the market around 6 months ago. Also, if a woman can't see past the acne is she really worth knowing. 

Penis size does not make they man or confer the ability to please a woman. At this point I'm not sure I can convince you of that. You might need to consider that the women are laughing and running for other reasons, not only perceived penis size. 

Middle school age here is 13 to 14. I'm having a bit of difficulty believing that a school (the administration) would let a 19 yr old in the same classroom/halls. Are you segregated from them or monitored in some fashion? Or are you in a different school/classroom setting? Also, have you been evaluated by an educational diagnostic professional? If so, what did they say? If not, why not?

Here is the big question, why do you feel the need to vent your misdirected anger (this includes lying) on people you don't even really know? What is the reward are you getting from this behavior? Is it for a feeling of superiority? Or is it a defense mechanism (I know you'll reject me so I'll reject preemptively)?