What Major Intellectual Issue Most Keeps You From Accepting The Christian Narrative?

[Whateverist]

That's not even quantifiable, for one. For two, I believe you're thinking of Hitler, and he identified as Christian. It also doesn't then follow that disbelief in god is absurd, even if it were true that atheists committed more atrocities than religious people. There are many other factors. You could look at whether they have less rich social lives because they're not in church all the time. Maybe they're more likely to be shunned by their religious families, so they are dealing with that. Maybe just the act of not believing in god makes them less likely to worry about consequences (all of which I think is ridiculous). That doesn't mean god is real.

For what it's worth, I don't think religious people or atheists are any more or less monstrous, though I can say for sure that organized groups of religious people slaughtering those who feel differently is definitely more common than organized groups of atheists doing anything other than go to Comic Con together.

I'm not talking about hitler, i'm talking about communist regimes, and the body counts are very much quantifiable...

There are things to say which would help explain how there is more to communism than atheism (not to mention communism is compatible with theism), but that would require words and I recognize the difficulty they cause you.