Do you wish there's a god?

[The Grand Nudger]

To me, the problem has been the denial that we have reasons. 

(Though it's also been kind of funny. I've been insisting that the atheists posting here are thinking people whose brains are not baby-brains. And for this, I'm accused of being anti-atheist. As if some people want to claim that we are NOT thinking people and we DO have baby-brains.)

That may be a problem for you, but it just wasn't an issue for my five year old self. Many things have changed since then, but my being an atheist simply isn't among them. No reason that I may possess today can truthfully be described as the reason for my atheism, because that state of belief preceded the possession of any reason I might offer.

Do you understand?

There simply is no reason or belief to explain or defend with regards to that state of belief. It is an irreducible fact of who I have always been. I can give you reasons why, much later in life, I became a gnostic - but that won't explain my atheism. I can give you reasons why, later in life, I rejected christianity, but that doesn't actually depend on my gnosticism -or- my atheism, nor can it explain either, nor is the rejection of christian theology a sufficient reason or cause for atheism, despite it's necessity.