Another question for Christians

[Cinjin]

You asked the question of deists - not of christians. In the entirety of my life as a deist, I have never asked God a single question. I think talking to myself is pointless. (and actually even as a christian, I found it to be very weird and one sided)

Thanks for clarifying that. I suppose I was implying that during your 'transition' from Christian to deist, you 'asked' if Jesus was real.

The transition didn't actually go from christian to deist. It was a long drawn out exchange that went from christian to agnostic to atheist to taoist to agnostic and finally to deist (which I thought was just a theist because I didn't know the term deist existed, even though I had been one for a couple years without knowing it)

Anyway, to be clear, the only time I ever THOUGHT I was talking to jesus is the dozen different times I got "saved". The rest of the times I prayed, I thought I was praying to god through jesus ... at least thats how I was told it worked. Doesn't really matter - neither god nor jesus EVER spoke to me and it's wishful thinking (and childish) to believe that you have an invisible friend who cares about your daily errands, your lost car keys, and your flaring hemorrhoids.

What you "feel" is only what you WANT to "feel". (the same way I WANT to believe in a God that created the universe. Feelings are not evidence of the holy spirit hanging out on your shoulder for your entire lifetime.)