In the process of watching Tenet, but for some reason, I can't watch more than a handful of minutes, before I get this strange urge to simply stop watching. I've stopped watching 4 times now, and I'm only 16 minutes into the movie (it's on HBO).
This isn't just for this movie, but a lot of stuff, I can find myself reading a pop-sci article on my phone, and then just get this similar urge to simply stop reading, even if I think the news material is fresh and engaging. What the fuck is wrong with my brain? It's like I'm just taking a sip of (analogically) a beer and then waiting a day or two for another sip of the same beer, even though I know I could enjoy that beer for an hour. I guess it's the sensory overload that made me insane in November of last year, and just now I feel the ripples. Same deal happened with a philosophy of ethics book I read, when I got to the last section of the book, on metaethics, I simply could not continue reading even though it was fascinating to me.
Only when I'm walking can I continue walking, because I can't just stop in the middle of walking, unless I feel like standing in the rain or after lights out. There I know I have to keep walking until I get back home or whatever destination I have in mind. I just worry I'll completely stop, because I feel like the threshold is lowering each time I get the urge to stop whatever I'm doing. This is some negative reinforcement shit I'm doing and I have no idea what's causing it, probably something in my unconscious.
This isn't just for this movie, but a lot of stuff, I can find myself reading a pop-sci article on my phone, and then just get this similar urge to simply stop reading, even if I think the news material is fresh and engaging. What the fuck is wrong with my brain? It's like I'm just taking a sip of (analogically) a beer and then waiting a day or two for another sip of the same beer, even though I know I could enjoy that beer for an hour. I guess it's the sensory overload that made me insane in November of last year, and just now I feel the ripples. Same deal happened with a philosophy of ethics book I read, when I got to the last section of the book, on metaethics, I simply could not continue reading even though it was fascinating to me.
Only when I'm walking can I continue walking, because I can't just stop in the middle of walking, unless I feel like standing in the rain or after lights out. There I know I have to keep walking until I get back home or whatever destination I have in mind. I just worry I'll completely stop, because I feel like the threshold is lowering each time I get the urge to stop whatever I'm doing. This is some negative reinforcement shit I'm doing and I have no idea what's causing it, probably something in my unconscious.
