That is a really sad story intertwined with a positive one, obsessed_philosopher. I can imagine that the loss of your brother under these circumstances casts a great shadow on the newly found freedom to seek fulfillment by thinking as a free man. You seem to enjoy the fruits of this freedom though and that is a good sign. Just keep questioning allways everything, even free thinking and atheism.
Purple Rabbit
Purple Rabbit
"I'm like a rabbit suddenly trapped, in the blinding headlights of vacuous crap" - Tim Minchin in "Storm"
Christianity is perfect bullshit, christians are not - Purple Rabbit, honouring CS Lewis
Faith is illogical - fr0d0
Christianity is perfect bullshit, christians are not - Purple Rabbit, honouring CS Lewis
Faith is illogical - fr0d0