(August 14, 2025 at 7:12 pm)The Grand Nudger Wrote: Just remember, if you find yourself imagining what it's like to be in hell, it's still not as bad as it could be. Yet.
I guess it takes a cynical mind to find comfort in that, but it gets me everytime. All of my problems stacked on top of each other don't even make it to somebody else's mediocre day.
I'm really sorry, but I'm not sure I understand what you're saying here, could you rephrase? If you just mean that being in a real hell would be worse than just imagining it, then sure I get that, I guess, but it is still traumatic to me, I think anyway, because this head injury came out of nowhere, with no clear cause known or offered, and with them saying I only had a 33% chance of surviving the surgery they gave me... basically I came out feeling much weaker and more fragile both physically and mentally, and with the real fear of it happening again... and I think that is what is driving the depression I'm in now, this total feeling of powerlessness... leading to these highly emotional and irrational sometimes states of mind. I know you're trying to help me, and really appreciate it, and hope you know that you'll always be my hero, but I am sorry to say I do sometimes have trouble understanding you, as I think you probably already know.
