zentor - let me repeat the advice of others and say mixing booze with lithium is not a good idea.
I have bipolar type 1 (for about 25 years), and while I can't claim to truly understand what you're going through, a lot of what you've said is very familiar to me. When you're in the middle of it, it can feel like it's impossible to cope with.
All you can do is the best you're capable of at the moment, but remember that you can learn to do better. Be gentle on yourself. Use your tools the best you can, and stick with your treatment.
I have bipolar type 1 (for about 25 years), and while I can't claim to truly understand what you're going through, a lot of what you've said is very familiar to me. When you're in the middle of it, it can feel like it's impossible to cope with.
All you can do is the best you're capable of at the moment, but remember that you can learn to do better. Be gentle on yourself. Use your tools the best you can, and stick with your treatment.
