Becoming an Atheist
July 14, 2012 at 3:54 am
(This post was last modified: July 14, 2012 at 4:51 am by Vorith.)
Okay hello everybody. First off I want to apologize for the wall of text I'am about to post but I really need some help.
After 21 years of being brain washed that religion is real and its the only way I want out.
I'v always knew deep down that it wasn't real and even with the facts in my face I kept my religion some what close to me, I suppeses at best you could call me a "sinner" even though I'am a good person and like to help people and so on, I'am appatrly going to hell for drinking smoking and going to night clubs that doesn't affect anyone in anyway apart from my self.
So the main problem I'am having at the moment is, I'am sort of an Atheist on the fence after all theses years of religion I guess I'am just having trouble getting in my thick skull that all religion is BS, and often doing small silent prayers in my head even though I Know its not real It's more of a habit for me that I really want to get over and the more I think of it the more I'am getting a headache I'v only slept 2.5hours today because I just can't sleep thinking about it.
So my question and I'd like your honest option weather its nice or not.
I'am missing something here ? Do I maybe still believe deep down in religion and I'am forcing my self in to becoming an Atheist or did it happen to any others here and it will just pass with time ? You know I don't really know how to explain it but I guess that's it.
(I'v already denounced all religion and dissed the very god I believe in or use to believe in lol, but it still feels like I'am missing something here)
If you read all the way here thank you it means a lot to me to get other people's option.
tl:dr Need help with becoming and Atheist.
After 21 years of being brain washed that religion is real and its the only way I want out.
I'v always knew deep down that it wasn't real and even with the facts in my face I kept my religion some what close to me, I suppeses at best you could call me a "sinner" even though I'am a good person and like to help people and so on, I'am appatrly going to hell for drinking smoking and going to night clubs that doesn't affect anyone in anyway apart from my self.
So the main problem I'am having at the moment is, I'am sort of an Atheist on the fence after all theses years of religion I guess I'am just having trouble getting in my thick skull that all religion is BS, and often doing small silent prayers in my head even though I Know its not real It's more of a habit for me that I really want to get over and the more I think of it the more I'am getting a headache I'v only slept 2.5hours today because I just can't sleep thinking about it.
So my question and I'd like your honest option weather its nice or not.
I'am missing something here ? Do I maybe still believe deep down in religion and I'am forcing my self in to becoming an Atheist or did it happen to any others here and it will just pass with time ? You know I don't really know how to explain it but I guess that's it.
(I'v already denounced all religion and dissed the very god I believe in or use to believe in lol, but it still feels like I'am missing something here)
If you read all the way here thank you it means a lot to me to get other people's option.
tl:dr Need help with becoming and Atheist.
"When one person suffers from a delusion, it
is called insanity. When many people suffer
from a delusion it is called religion.”
is called insanity. When many people suffer
from a delusion it is called religion.”
