RE: Let's Start Over, I'm Blackrook and I'm Here to Get Some Answers to Important Questions
October 1, 2012 at 12:43 pm
(September 26, 2012 at 4:27 pm)Blackrook Wrote: My life has basically been one shitty experience after another, ad infinitum.
If I thought this life was all there is I seriously could not stand being alive.
The only thing that keeps me going, the ONLY THING, is believing that at some point something really good is going to happen to me.
I've given up on something good happening to me in this life, so all I have left is the life in the hereafter.
So if I was an atheist, I would probably kill myself so my wife could get the life insurance money.
I am being totally serious here.
I know what you mean. I left the RCC after over 50 years and not long ago. I read so much early history of religions and ancient Gods ,
Josephus and Roman history, I came to the conclusion , also after much Bible study, that things didn't make sense anymore. Like you, it has been so hard, first to deprogram myself out of RC, and then to find out how the Bible is a not historical, it has left me drained. I still feel there is a God, supreme being, I'm not sure how he inteacts in our lives tho. There are way too many coincidences for there not to be.
No do not do anything rash, I agree with the other posters, get some help, antidepressants perhaps. We are, or most of us are spiritual beings, and I believe in life after death, so don't dispair, and don't kill youself. Get a dog, they are good at cheering one up.
