Hello freethinkers,
Over the past few days or so, I have wanted to tell you about my two disorders and how they affect me. So here I go.
Ever since I was young, I'd have many fits and heated, unresolved tantrums about various subjects (like not getting my way; the normal little boy kind of stuff). it wasn't until I began to seriously threaten my parents - like going into full detail on how I wanted to kill them or kill myself, and so on, that my parents sent me to see a family therapist. around that time I was then diagnosed with anxiety disorder (I must've been 10 or so).
After I became an atheist in the spring of this year, I suffered from a terrible depression - one that almost involved a suicide attempt. Right after I told my parents I was going to commit suicide (I told them in detail what I was going to do), they sent me to an adolescent psych ward 30 miles from where I live. I stayed there for almost two weeks.
You might be wondering why I became depressed. If you notice, it was right after I became an atheist - so you might come to the conclusion that not believing in god stressed the hell out of me. No - that was not true - what stressed the hell out of me was living with a family who deeply believed in god, doubted evolution, took the bible VERY seriously and hated homosexuals.
I was never diagnosed with asperger's syndrome. I just discovered what the characteristics were and said to myself - "I can totally relate to these symptoms - I HAVE to have asperger's!"
Living with these nuisances bring a challenge to me everyday. I still have not told my parents or my family that I'm an atheist. I am forced to go to church every week (Thank goodness for mobile devices and Wi-Fi!), and I am bombarded by fundamental christianity all over my house.
After I move out, find a good job and a place, the living atmosphere should be VERY different.
Over the past few days or so, I have wanted to tell you about my two disorders and how they affect me. So here I go.
Ever since I was young, I'd have many fits and heated, unresolved tantrums about various subjects (like not getting my way; the normal little boy kind of stuff). it wasn't until I began to seriously threaten my parents - like going into full detail on how I wanted to kill them or kill myself, and so on, that my parents sent me to see a family therapist. around that time I was then diagnosed with anxiety disorder (I must've been 10 or so).
After I became an atheist in the spring of this year, I suffered from a terrible depression - one that almost involved a suicide attempt. Right after I told my parents I was going to commit suicide (I told them in detail what I was going to do), they sent me to an adolescent psych ward 30 miles from where I live. I stayed there for almost two weeks.
You might be wondering why I became depressed. If you notice, it was right after I became an atheist - so you might come to the conclusion that not believing in god stressed the hell out of me. No - that was not true - what stressed the hell out of me was living with a family who deeply believed in god, doubted evolution, took the bible VERY seriously and hated homosexuals.
I was never diagnosed with asperger's syndrome. I just discovered what the characteristics were and said to myself - "I can totally relate to these symptoms - I HAVE to have asperger's!"
Living with these nuisances bring a challenge to me everyday. I still have not told my parents or my family that I'm an atheist. I am forced to go to church every week (Thank goodness for mobile devices and Wi-Fi!), and I am bombarded by fundamental christianity all over my house.
After I move out, find a good job and a place, the living atmosphere should be VERY different.
