How to suppress parts of myself, to blend in.

[Angrboda]

I can see a cloud, but it is impossible to define where its edges are; does that mean it is not there?

Do you want a technical discussion of the philosophical fields of vagueness and mereology? That the boundary between two states cannot be rigorously defined both does not evade the fallacy of the beard nor prove that the self you would have us believe in is like the cloud. Does the self have vague boundaries? That seems like a partial definition in and of itself. Much of the past two years I've been studying the question of the nature of mind and self, from scientific, philosophical, and religious, primarily Buddhist, perspectives. I find your reply most unsatisfactory and the appeal to the sorites paradox simply an apologia of a clumsy and inchoate, and possibly false, notion.

You're using sophistry to evade the charge of having fuzzy and incoherent beliefs. Is this really who you are, at bottom?

Next thing you'll be dusting off the Ship Of Theseus paradox and grinning like the proverbial cat who swallowed the canary.