Why is life worth living as an atheist?

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I respect your opinion, I just hold a different one. This particular philosophy has guided me to humanism and cautious pacifism (there are exceptions, of course), which I would've never considered when I younger. This does not lend any truth to the philosophy, of course, but I believe it has benefited my life.

I didn't need to subscribe to any particular philosophy to make me a nice girl and a doormat

I don't believe my being a deterministic existential nihilist has benefitted my life at all. For the most part, I recognize that what I believe if pressed has little bearing upon my appreciation for my life. It doesn't consume me, it is simply as much an inherent part of me as being a woman, loving pizza, and having silvery-blond hair.

I would ask... precisely what is 'truth'? How does recognizing that meaning is self-derived and otherwise likely nonexistent turn one into a pacifist? It seems just as likely one could take existentialism and be a mass-murdering psychopath... simply because the philosophy makes no claims past itself. It isn't a religion... so why do you hold it so reverently and suggest it has guided you?

Respect my opinions all ya like, I'm still asking questions when people say strange things