Creed, let me first say that I respect your honesty and willingness to share your heartfelt emotions. I think melancholic people engage the world with a sad thoughtfulness that exemplifies a unique kind of courage and wisdom. As for myself I push myself through occasional bouts of depression. It seems the deeper I go into my own faith the more doubts I have. And that seems appropriate to me. The more you have to fight to enjoy life the more wonderful and valuable the days of simple pleasure become.
Rx Drugs do take the edge off, but they only take me so far. I need the power of Jesus. I know you see that as a crutch and I suppose it is. But not any more than having a good friend beside you when need him most. And for those of you who feel the urge to yuk it up at my confession, fuck you.
Technically, suicide is a sin, but clearly fear of sin is nothing compared to overwhelming feelings of despair. As for me I push through, because I believe the promise that the Lord provides abundant life to those who follow Him. Comparing were I was to where I am now, he's honored that promise even in my darkest hours. While I wish that you could find the same comfort as I do, I know you have to find your own way and I wish only the best for you.
Rx Drugs do take the edge off, but they only take me so far. I need the power of Jesus. I know you see that as a crutch and I suppose it is. But not any more than having a good friend beside you when need him most. And for those of you who feel the urge to yuk it up at my confession, fuck you.
Technically, suicide is a sin, but clearly fear of sin is nothing compared to overwhelming feelings of despair. As for me I push through, because I believe the promise that the Lord provides abundant life to those who follow Him. Comparing were I was to where I am now, he's honored that promise even in my darkest hours. While I wish that you could find the same comfort as I do, I know you have to find your own way and I wish only the best for you.
