God is the great spirit friend

[Mystical]

Aw Esqy I love you too. Sorry about your coffee:/ You know what Miss Summerqueen? Come to think of it when it turned out the praying and giving it my all didnt work, they just turned it right back around on me based on the weaknesses in my life. that being sick probably saved me from a worser fate of the path i was taking. I was in premed, and I didnt do drugs at the time i finally started classes. before that, sure. For an entire year out of my life from highschool to college i experimented., but I grew out of it for bigger and better things before i was cut down completely by an illness I'd spent my entire life dealing with silently. I just accepted what they said for years: trust that god know best, etc. oh but you bet no one else suggested that medicine is standing in the way of being better. instead it became my faith: double edged sword: believe god is giving you the best there is in life, trust him to guide you through incomprehensible bullshit without question, or else face hell when u do finally die. the unfair factor i got to experience is only minute compared to people all over this earth that people like christians expect a book to feed. theyre more concerned with whether a starvng or dying person has submitted their existencial rights to the forgiveness that kind spirit friend god offers, then the people die and those who shared that "gift" with them get to add one more tally on their rewards card. maybe they shoulda brought food and seeds and a shovel with them, not books