How to tell a real freethinker

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Honest theology doesn't question the existence of God, because when you draw near to God and seriously abandon yourself to the holiness of God and renounce the world, you start to experience God in very real and tangible ways.

Yup, that's why it's a faith based proposition rather than an evidence based one; you can't find any evidence, but you keep on believing anyway. Not incredibly compelling.

Most people don't experience God like this because they don't do this, they just go to church. There is nowhere in the Bible where it says if you merely goto church that you will experience God, if you want to experience God you must determine in your heart that you will resist everything in your life that is opposed to you becoming a good person.

I hate this about christianity, this dogged need to make "good" and "god" synonyms. They aren't.

If you don't care about being a good person enough to do this, then I don't really care that you won't find God, because you don't deserve God.

Isn't it a big part of your theology that nobody deserves god, that we're all base sinners and it's only through a spectacular act of forgiveness that any of us are allowed access to him?