I have been very fearful of God for a long time. It's hard to just stop fearing God when I can't stop asking myself "What if I'm wrong?" My deconversion wasn't an impulsive thing. I have spent the last couple years researching religion, both eastern and western, and I have seen that religion isn't the truth. But I'll think about something anti-theist, and panic. My panic attacks can lead to seizures, so maybe I'm more afraid of seizures than of God. Yes, I do see a therapist a couple times a month, and he has helped me not be constantly scared anymore, but the panic attacks still hit me every now and then. I spent too much of my life trying to be perfect for God, and it made me waste a lot of my life. Deconversion has helped me a lot, but yeah, I'm still scared of being wrong. But damnit! I know I'm not! Grr!
"Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.”
- Buddha
"Anyone wanting to believe Jesus lived and walked as a real live human being must do so despite the evidence, not because of it."
- Dennis McKinsey
- Buddha
"Anyone wanting to believe Jesus lived and walked as a real live human being must do so despite the evidence, not because of it."
- Dennis McKinsey
