Kick Depression's Ass!

[My imaginary friend is GOD]

Hmm... Blade... I have DEFINITELY been clinically diagnosed with general depression... I definitely have it...

I have DEFINITELY been diagnosed with ADHD... Right now, ADHD me is like, "Hmm... Every problem this causes me, I have learned how to deal with it better! Also, I am taking Vyvanse! It's supposed to help me CONCENTRATE better!" I definitely have both the inattentive and hyperactive parts of ADHD at the same time... The inattentive part is annoying ALL THE TIME and I function less well than a normal person... Things happen to me like, *puts a phone somewhere other than where I normally put it* *2 seconds later* ME: WHERE THE FUCK DID I JUST PUT MY PHONE... The hyperactive part is me being really aggressive and confrontational... *learned SELF CONTROL, no longer a problem * and my mind's racing all the time which sometimes means I can't sleep...

I might also have GAD... hmm... I have been really anxious all my life, affecting EVERYTHING about me, yet it has still not usually been debilitating to me very often... When GAD disorder is debilitating me I'm like, "WHY THE FUCK AM I EVEN INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE RIGHT NOW?! I HATE INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE! GOD I WISH I HAD A PILL THAT WOULD FIX THIS"... I have previously used prescription drugs recreationally... for some reason, the combination of a *muscle relaxer* and *some fucking thing that made me feel like I was floating* was FANTASTIC. Apparently a "muscle relaxer" also relaxes your brain... it kind of works like all drugs designed to help with anxiety... For some reason, me being on any prescribed drug that helps with anxiety is BETTER.

I think my psychiatrist right now thinks I have GAD and has not yet told ME this... Every time I visit him, he asks the question: "What is your anxiety level right now on a scale from 1 to 10?"


WTF DOES YOUR LIFE SUCK MORE THAN MINE?!