Hello everyone, I am totally new here but I am really hoping I can get some feedback from some people about some really crazy things that have been happening to me lately.
I don't want to bore anyone with a super long post so I will do my best to keep it as short as possible.
First I will just start out letting everyone know I am 25 years old and I am an Atheist. I have always been pretty dead set in my views but after a few things that have happened recently, I honestly don't know what to believe anymore and it is seriously causing me a lot of problems.
I recently found out that my biological Father passed away May 29 2014.. I ended up finding out exactly one month later.. June 29 2014. What is bothering me.. is the way I found out.
Some quick background information: I have been estranged from my Father and his side of the family ever since I was 13 years old. I also want to mention that because I am now 25 years old, since so much time has passed, I honestly never thought about my Father very much.. I had put that all behind me.. Until now!
I woke up June 29th after having an insanely vivid dream about him.. again, because so much time has passed since I last saw him, I didn't think about him much anymore, so the dream kind of caught me off guard as I have never really had dreams about him. The weird thing about this dream was that my Father had told me to check the obituaries?! So almost immediately upon waking up, almost instinctual, a feeling I can't even explain. I grabbed my phone and Googled his name. With a bit of searching it didn't take me long... There his name was, there his obituary was. I was pretty speechless.
Now the mind blowing thing about all of this... is I got on the phone to call my Mom to deliver the news to her, and before I could even finish speaking she interrupted me and had told me she already knew, and had known for a few weeks now, but because of everything I had been dealing with, she said she didn't know the right way to break the news to me, and she said she didn't know how the news would impact me either.... (I've been dealing with really severe health issues the last few years and was going through a really rough period a few months ago) so she told me she was waiting for a more stable moment in my life to be able to tell me...
She isn't religious but she said a little prayer in her mind, that if there was ever a way for my Father to be able to tell me himself, that he needed to find a way for she couldn't bare to do it herself right now. She said it was the least he could do since I never got to have a relationship with him and was never able to get to know him or have a final goodbye. I honestly couldn't believe what I was hearing when she was telling me this.... My Father had found a way to tell me about his death through my dreams?! Again...
I am an Atheist and I honestly can't sit here and say that it was all sheer coincidence... There is just NO way... Exactly one month after his death I am having this dream about him and this is how I find out?! I am really wanting to know what all my other fellow Atheist's think about all of this...
I don't want to bore anyone with a super long post so I will do my best to keep it as short as possible.
First I will just start out letting everyone know I am 25 years old and I am an Atheist. I have always been pretty dead set in my views but after a few things that have happened recently, I honestly don't know what to believe anymore and it is seriously causing me a lot of problems.
I recently found out that my biological Father passed away May 29 2014.. I ended up finding out exactly one month later.. June 29 2014. What is bothering me.. is the way I found out.
Some quick background information: I have been estranged from my Father and his side of the family ever since I was 13 years old. I also want to mention that because I am now 25 years old, since so much time has passed, I honestly never thought about my Father very much.. I had put that all behind me.. Until now!
I woke up June 29th after having an insanely vivid dream about him.. again, because so much time has passed since I last saw him, I didn't think about him much anymore, so the dream kind of caught me off guard as I have never really had dreams about him. The weird thing about this dream was that my Father had told me to check the obituaries?! So almost immediately upon waking up, almost instinctual, a feeling I can't even explain. I grabbed my phone and Googled his name. With a bit of searching it didn't take me long... There his name was, there his obituary was. I was pretty speechless.
Now the mind blowing thing about all of this... is I got on the phone to call my Mom to deliver the news to her, and before I could even finish speaking she interrupted me and had told me she already knew, and had known for a few weeks now, but because of everything I had been dealing with, she said she didn't know the right way to break the news to me, and she said she didn't know how the news would impact me either.... (I've been dealing with really severe health issues the last few years and was going through a really rough period a few months ago) so she told me she was waiting for a more stable moment in my life to be able to tell me...
She isn't religious but she said a little prayer in her mind, that if there was ever a way for my Father to be able to tell me himself, that he needed to find a way for she couldn't bare to do it herself right now. She said it was the least he could do since I never got to have a relationship with him and was never able to get to know him or have a final goodbye. I honestly couldn't believe what I was hearing when she was telling me this.... My Father had found a way to tell me about his death through my dreams?! Again...
I am an Atheist and I honestly can't sit here and say that it was all sheer coincidence... There is just NO way... Exactly one month after his death I am having this dream about him and this is how I find out?! I am really wanting to know what all my other fellow Atheist's think about all of this...
