GC Wrote:I'm not sure why something so beautiful could be so terrible for you. Love is very special. You do not have to explain it if you're not comfortable with it. But I will say I'm quite curious, but don't let this pressure you, it's not my intent.
I believe you believed, like I said I've seen it before and want to prevent children from being scared or surprised when their life ends, see I believe in questioning, many here want believe that, questioning gets one to the truth. The truth I speak of is to know God is real through a personal relationship with Him, God will prove himself to those who really want to know. Could be that many are afraid of the answer, on both sides of this issue. Not so for me, truth means more to me than you could imagine, this came through wanting to know, it came from God, unmistakably.
I'm not sure I'm in the mood to hear you tell me, oh those weren't true Christians. I will tell you what I can though. Who knows why. My whole life the only people who "loved" me were the people who hurt me. People who hurt me in unforgivable ways. They were all godly people and they all loved me. They all wanted what was "best for me". I can't make you understand. I only know 2 things for sure. The first is that I see no evidence for a Christian god. The second is that if he's real, I don't really care. I want nothing to do with him. I love people. I am forgiving and loving and caring. I want more than anything to make life more bearable for as many people as I can. I want people to be happy, to be...ok. If there is a god and he doesn't see that my circumstances lead me to where I am and that my heart is as good as it can be, then he doesn't deserve me.
