New Atheist, depressed, and wondering how to cope with reality.

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Keeping one's faith is need not be a struggle. Maybe, just maybe, the way to Christ with which you were presented was not the right approach for you.

This is unimpressive scavenging tactics right here. Chain up the wounded animal? How rude and unhelpful.

To OP: welcome to the forum, and thank you for sharing your story. As others have said, the strong atheist position is in the minority in my experience. Most atheists just take the approach that no convincing case for a God has been put forward, that's it. There's no requirement to go making your own claims that there is no God, and such.

I'd recommend listening to some of the atheist experience if you haven't already, it's a live call in show where both atheists and theists call in to discuss their beliefs. It's also aimed at supporting atheists, and they have discussions about many relevant topics. They also rip the piss out of religion in amusing ways. I find it informative and entertaining. If you're interested, here is a link to their show archive spanning many years. You'll just see the two 2015 shows first, but you can use the selector thing at the top to pick other years.

http://www.atheist-experience.com/archive/

I hope things improve for you, keep writing on the forum and we'll see how we can help and support you. Look for local atheist friends and support groups. If there isn't one, maybe start your own!