RE: A question for all you converted athiests!
February 28, 2015 at 3:36 am
(This post was last modified: February 28, 2015 at 3:41 am by remagination.)
On one hand, I first felt a void --- like I had lost a close imaginary friend ---- one that I didn't get along with, but still missed.
On the other hand, I used to be angry at God for allowing such ostracism to befall me for being trans, for causing me to be born trans in the first place --- for making me so disorganized. How could God allow this? But the anger is gone --- since I find not-existing to be a perfectly valid excuse for any failings on God's part. I mean seriously --- to be expected to do any better, God would have to actually exist.
I should not, though --- I haven't been atheist for very long. Though I assure you this was not an anger-based de-conversion. If it were, it would have happened years ago. The cause of de-conversion was that I had for a while been studying the refinement of logic --- and recently, something prompted me to direct my logical scrutiny at the reasons why I previously believed in God.
On the other hand, I used to be angry at God for allowing such ostracism to befall me for being trans, for causing me to be born trans in the first place --- for making me so disorganized. How could God allow this? But the anger is gone --- since I find not-existing to be a perfectly valid excuse for any failings on God's part. I mean seriously --- to be expected to do any better, God would have to actually exist.
I should not, though --- I haven't been atheist for very long. Though I assure you this was not an anger-based de-conversion. If it were, it would have happened years ago. The cause of de-conversion was that I had for a while been studying the refinement of logic --- and recently, something prompted me to direct my logical scrutiny at the reasons why I previously believed in God.