The Jesus Freaks Will Hate This

[Lek]

Err... What? I guess you're done with objective study then

I believe that the scientific and historical facts have been put on the table and there's not much more to consider in that regard. What other evidence is there to see? I didn't come to believe because I read the bible and decided to believe in Jesus because of that. I was raised to believe as a child, and now that I'm an adult I've stopped and am taking an honest assessment of why I believe. I have no parents coercing me into believing. It's all up to God and me. I know the science, the historical criticism, and the scriptures. You can only examine the evidence for so long then you have to either "crap or get off the pot", as they say.

I know you guys hate these emotional responses to the existence of God, but regardless this is a true experience for me. A few days, or maybe a week ago, I had just finished a discussion with you and some others, when the realization came that I wasn't going to come up with any natural proof for God. I began to consider the possibility of chucking my faith and decided to step outside where I could think more clearly. It was beautiful sunny day and I went out into the backyard, looked around, saw some birds flying overhead, and I immediately was aware of the existence of God in the world that I was standing in. It was no magical experience, but just a realization that came to me from the evidence I was viewing. I believe God was there, but he didn't come down from the sky and hit me over the head or strike me with lightning.

I'm obsessive-compulsive and can never settle for an answer, so I'm always searching for something. Most people seem to be able to settle in and go with it, but my faith is, and always be, a work-in-progress.