Thanks for writing this - And I'm not playing the social niceness card, I really mean thank you because I identify with much of what you've written. Meeting new people is a painful act for me and I avoid it. I hate it when strangers talk to me as if I gave them permission. In fact, most people I am around everyday annoy me eventually. I can perfectly fake a smile and say "Hi, how are you?" etc but I don't mean it most of the time unless it's my girlfriend. I don't talk much and I hate it when people tell me I need to be more extrovert. I have trouble socially interacting and making my point - Sometimes I feel like telling people to go fuck themselves and be done with it, but I'm too afraid to be rude because I live in a culture where politeness is highly valued. I don't distinguish between theists and atheists - Atheists are right about one thing and that's it, my parents are getting more moronic everyday and they are both atheists.
I took a small course in public communication and public speech and it turned out quite well - My problem isn't speaking in public or loudly, it's people themselves - They annoy me. When I find someone I appreciate it's a rare treasure. If I told anyone what I think of them I would have problems living in this society.
My parents are morons, they are always right and everything they do is justified - Tradition matters and what is tradition must be correct. My professors are assholes with one or two exceptions, they are equally always right and they prefer spouting the same old rhetoric and their opinion instead of actually teaching the material and showing different perspectives. Most people talk about things I don't care and sometimes even despise. I have few people to talk to aside from my girlfriend. The only things that calm me down are music and cigarettes.
I took a small course in public communication and public speech and it turned out quite well - My problem isn't speaking in public or loudly, it's people themselves - They annoy me. When I find someone I appreciate it's a rare treasure. If I told anyone what I think of them I would have problems living in this society.
My parents are morons, they are always right and everything they do is justified - Tradition matters and what is tradition must be correct. My professors are assholes with one or two exceptions, they are equally always right and they prefer spouting the same old rhetoric and their opinion instead of actually teaching the material and showing different perspectives. Most people talk about things I don't care and sometimes even despise. I have few people to talk to aside from my girlfriend. The only things that calm me down are music and cigarettes.
Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you
