Perhaps if you had smoked, drank, done drugs in moderation, you would have a different story to share. Anything in excess, after all, is dangerous, and it seems you have simply transitioned that excess to religion, which makes you the overbearing fundamentalist you are today. You have not gotten rid of addiction. Rather, you have merely made religion your addiction, and it is no more healthy than what you were before.
"Never trust a fox. Looks like a dog, behaves like a cat."
~ Erin Hunter
~ Erin Hunter