If you were ever a theist...

[MTL]

 I concluded that either God is Truth and seeking Truth would ultimately lead to God, or something like Calvinism is true and I'm just not one of the lucky few that God has chosen to give saving faith.

And that degree of willingness to be honest with yourself is both painful and brave.

I've observed many times that Religion also professes to be primarily about raising glory to God,
yet it is so obviously really about comforting the faithful.

The Truth doesn't necessarily comfort.  Usually, the Truth hurts.

Any God worth His salt wouldn't have to bribe, or threaten, puny humans into following Him.

And any God that really loved me would offer me eternal life and spare me the fires of Hell
whether I chose to follow Him or not...especially if I am being as honest as you have been,
and as sincere in my pursuit of the Truth.

Again, this is not to necessarily say that there is absolutely no God...

...but it is one more argument that if there IS a God,
He very likely has NOTHING to do with the God described in the Bible.

I am Agnostic, leaning toward Atheism.

But I allow for the possibility...however remote...of God's existence.

I just don't allow that that if He exists, that He has ANYTHING to do with any of the world Religions.

If He exists to be 'found' at all, the path to Him will be through real honest and real Truth,
...read, Science...not through Religious gobbledegook passed off as 'truth'.

It is ironic to me that for all Religion has opposed Science over the thousands of years,
it is through Science that we will likely find Him, if He is there to be found at all.