Evf, I think you're making this all rather complicated when it isn't. I'm sure I've conveyed in other threads that I'm well aware that hoping for something or believing enough and keeping my eyes shut and fingers crossed, is not going to make it true. I'm not stupid. I'm not hoping for hoping's sake. I've assessed the 'evidence' or the inferences of design. I 'see' design and purpose in the universe. I 'see' truth in what Jesus speaks of. Da Dah!! I've got myself a kind of 'belief', but due to my skeptical nature and my doubts I know I may be barking up the wrong tree, so I'm not going to go and join a convent just yet. Sorry if I sound a bit peeved, but I don't really think me 'hoping' for 'more' is a big deal, or betrays a madness. That's it.
"The eternal mystery of the world is its comprehensibility"
Albert Einstein
Albert Einstein