(March 18, 2019 at 7:26 pm)Fleeing Jesus Wrote: Honestly, an afterlife scares me more than oblivion. I’ve suffered from a psychiatric drug-induced condition in the past called akathisia where you can’t stop moving your body (even when exhausted). It’s so terrible that people who suffer from it chronically are six times more likely to kill themselves than people with depression. The thought that there’s no end to that kind of suffering is far scarier than the idea of oblivion at death. I’ve been in tears before begging my parents to tell me that there’s no god so that when I die I will at least be at peace. It’s literally hell on earth and the thought that there’s no end to it is the single worst thing I can imagine.
In all seriousness, have you thought about seeking professional help? Or have you already done so? You seem to have an unhealthy obsession with this. It seems like it'd be super uncomfortable, to say the least.
If you're frightened of dying, and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the Earth.
