Anxiety/Depression/Mental Illness Support

[Faith No More]

Please, get real help. This forum is not a substitute for that.

[Shell B]

Nor is facebook, really.

[Napoléon]

IM PISSED PLAYING SWGEMU AND THIS ASSHOLE TAKES ALL MYSPAWNS

I ALWAYS SAY ON FB THAT I WANT TO DIE BUT NO ONE REPSONDS ANYMORE
SO I GOT ON MY MOMS FB AND SAID I KILLED MYSELF AND MY FAMILY STARTED CALLING MY MOM

NOW SHE PISSED AND LEFT THE HOUSE AND IM FEELING LIKE SHIT AND ALL ALONE CANT FUCKING TAKEI TANYMORE

Jesus christ go see a fucking psychiatrist.

[Annik]

IM PISSED PLAYING SWGEMU AND THIS ASSHOLE TAKES ALL MYSPAWNS

I ALWAYS SAY ON FB THAT I WANT TO DIE BUT NO ONE REPSONDS ANYMORE
SO I GOT ON MY MOMS FB AND SAID I KILLED MYSELF AND MY FAMILY STARTED CALLING MY MOM

NOW SHE PISSED AND LEFT THE HOUSE AND IM FEELING LIKE SHIT AND ALL ALONE CANT FUCKING TAKEI TANYMORE

I don't think posting this on your mother's facebook was a good idea. People have probably just stopped reacting to it. Attention-seeking like this isn't healthy. You need to see a doctor about these issues. In the meantime, I suggest you not post things that that on you mother's facebook, as it's not your account and it will only make things worse for you. Take a deep breath, go meditate and think your actions through before you commit to them.

[Creed of Heresy]

I ALWAYS SAY ON FB THAT I WANT TO DIE BUT NO ONE REPSONDS ANYMORE

Boy who cried wolf. As others have said, psychiatric assistance is something you need quite badly at this particular moment.

[zentor]

working on gettign stable today - im not as bad but still not great...

one thing i am telling myself, is not to get so depresed when smoene puts you down,

ie: in my game people duel and if they win they say stuff like "you shoul dkill yourself, your a basement dweller, youll never acomplish anyhing, your bad at socialising, nobody likes you"

but i realise u know being online people like saying hurtful things, kinda like driving by and cursing someone
cuz a lot of people that have made fun of me in my game that i thought were awesome people and way cooler than me

are obese irl, also have low self esteem, etc...and if you talk to them one on one irl, they are totally different.

and tbh, i dont think anyone is a "loser" or "should kill themself"

like they said in the othe rthread, everyone has some potential, and a mind is a terrible thing to waste

and also people do like me IRL, so when i say "NO one likes me, that is a cognitive distortion"
i have a lot of those, so gonna keep aware of my thoughts

also stopped talking to god and cursing him out (well trying to)
still have my "angel friend" (imaginary girlfriend?) but limiting talking to her only when i feel super lonely

this mental stuff sucks, but hoep everyone has a good day

[Creed of Heresy]

working on gettign stable today - im not as bad but still not great...

one thing i am telling myself, is not to get so depresed when smoene puts you down,

ie: in my game people duel and if they win they say stuff like "you shoul dkill yourself, your a basement dweller, youll never acomplish anyhing, your bad at socialising, nobody likes you"

but i realise u know being online people like saying hurtful things, kinda like driving by and cursing someone
cuz a lot of people that have made fun of me in my game that i thought were awesome people and way cooler than me

are obese irl, also have low self esteem, etc...and if you talk to them one on one irl, they are totally different.

and tbh, i dont think anyone is a "loser" or "should kill themself"

like they said in the othe rthread, everyone has some potential, and a mind is a terrible thing to waste

and also people do like me IRL, so when i say "NO one likes me, that is a cognitive distortion"
i have a lot of those, so gonna keep aware of my thoughts

also stopped talking to god and cursing him out (well trying to)
still have my "angel friend" (imaginary girlfriend?) but limiting talking to her only when i feel super lonely

this mental stuff sucks, but hoep everyone has a good day

Trust me, I know how you feel when it comes to this kind of thing. Depression kicks like a mule and its worst quality is that it can drive you to do things that, while you think they would gain you some sympathy, can turn people against you. Alas, if you tell people you want to die a lot but you never do it, people realize you're seeking attention. I think it's mostly that you are lonely and you're trying to find some way of alleviating that loneliness. I admit I've felt that way before but my loneliness is self-imposed so I don't really feel a need to fix it. Regardless; the solution is not to threaten to kill yourself, nor to attempt to do it, either; those will make your situation worse rather than better since you'll drive potential friends away.

First thing: Talk to a therapist but do not become reliant upon them for treatment. Just do it to get your head straight, to give you some breathing room. Second thing: Go to bars or nightclubs or social gatherings of some kind, informal ones; social meeting places, basically. You'll feel awkward at first; that's normal. Go just for the sake of going. Meeting people will come naturally if you're just "in the zone." It won't happen instantly. Several outings like this will get you in a mindset of being out in society, even if you aren't participating in anything yet. From there you can start talking to people. Start with simple shit; current events, something that's happening that affects the people there, try to strike up a conversation. Talk to people; don't worry about WHAT to talk about, once you get a conversation going, just roll with it.

It'll help alleviate the loneliness considerably, trust me.

[Angrboda]

Sorry to hear about your experiences, Creed. That jump must have sucked bigtime. I lost nine fingers due to frostbite, but I was asleep during the first half, and pumped full of opiates for the second, so there was no pain, really. (Except when the nurses would fob me off instead of checking my drip.)

I'm reminded of a story a friend once told me of his suicide attempt. He took a shotgun and aimed it at his head and pulled the trigger. Unfortunately, he was so nervous and sweaty, he missed and blew a hole in the wall. Unfortunately, it was not his home, but that of an older friend. Suddenly he was panicked, running about trying to find supplies to spackle over the hole before the owner got home.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2hVKG9wFelk

[Creed of Heresy]

Yeah, it fucking hurt a lot. I was laying there for a couple minutes. I must have started screaming in pain or something because someone found me. I slipped into shock. Woke up a while later feeling like the world was just a deluge of pain. I was in the hospital for a month recovering. Still hurts my legs if I stand up too long. Go figure; I work a job where I am on my feet 8+ hours at a time.

[Angrboda]

"One frequent characteristic of more complex death rituals is the practice of double-funerals. The first set of rituals is organised immediately after death, it is concerned with the fact that the dead body is dangerous, and in practice it generally concludes with a first burial. The second part, which may occur months or years later, is supposed to turn the deceased body into a more stable, proper, less dangerous entity. In many places this is the point at which people disinter the dead, wipe the bones clear of any remaining flesh and put them in their final resting place. The Berawan in the Philippines have such double rituals described by anthropologist Peter Metcalf. After death, the corpse is exposed on a specially constructed seat in front of the house, so all close and distant kin can come over and inspect it or touch it. During this period the rest of the community are supposed to gather every night, sing and dance and generally make as much noise as possible. People frequently talk to the corpse, asking why he or she ‘chose’ to leave, offering the corpse a cigarette or some food."

— Pascal Boyer, Religion Explained, pp. 208-09