Help me I'm watching myself die in time/my life is going by as I blink my eyes.

[constantgamer247]

What do you mean? I know of my existence and perform actions everyday. Do you mean remember?

Yah you wont remember all your triumphs, all your successes, all your victories ect...

[LastPoet]

Nope, doesn't frighten me at all.

[constantgamer247]

I feel a lot more appreciative of life this morning than I was yesterday.

This statement indicates that there could be another factor in this problem. It could possiblely be anxiety. When ever anxiety creeps in it can cause us to obsess over things that aren't a big problem much of the time.

Now, I am in now way saying that's what you're experiencing, but it seems to be apparent that something in your mood changes and it makes you obsess over death. If you could find out what that is and control it, you could minimize it's effects.

I have no degree in psychology, but I do have some first hand experience in these kinds of things, so I suggest that you talk to a therapist. This will help you get to the root of where this fear is coming from.

You are probably correct about anxiety; im at a critical moment in my life. Graduating from a 2 yr college and going to a University. Made me realise how fast my life has been going and probably caused anxiety.

[LastPoet]

There are alot of ways to deal with anxiety, you could get the help of a psychologist that is versed in Cognitive-Behavioural Therapy. That's one I recommend and most of the times it requires no drugs.

[Napoléon]

The thought of never knowing of your existance or actions does not scare you?

Why should it? I don't see our lack of existence as something to be fearful of. We won't exist, so why will it matter.

Why worry about things we don't have any control over? It's not like your worrying is going to change anything. You get one shot at life pal, so make the most of it. If it so happens there is an afterlife, then what have you lost anyway? It's impossible to understand all the workings of the universe. To comprehend not existing at all is very difficult indeed, but I don't see it as something which should take over my life, because there isn't anything I can do about it either way.

[Paul the Human]

Exactly, what Napoleon said. Why concern yourself with what happens after you're gone? Turn your efforts and concentration to doing the best you can right now.

[Napoléon]

The other day while meditating I fell into a state where I was a snake. Not sure what kind, but I'de say from my actions I was a Garter snake or something insignificant. I was slithering through the grass hunting (it felt like head way flying, yet I still had a body that propelled me from on the ground and it was not a feeling of flying like you get from being up in a high place in a dream, I felt low to the ground and I moved through grass), traveling in and out of my burrow/home, as a snake. My perception was a snake, my form was a snake my thought process was a snake, I had always been a snake like you think right now that you have always been a human/it's your only perspective.

Dude I think you were fucking high.

[Shell B]

It sounds like you have existential anxiety, though I am not qualified to say you do or you don't.

If it is totally freaking you out, see a doctor. (I say that a lot here.)

[Faith No More]

If it is totally freaking you out, see a doctor. (I say that a lot here.)

Tis the best advice when speaking over the internet.

[LastPoet]

Agreed, if its affecting your life, there's no 'shame' in asking for help.