Help me I'm watching myself die in time/my life is going by as I blink my eyes.

[constantgamer247]

Do you believe in cause and effect?

To what extent? Do I believe that being a good person ultimately leads to increased luck? No.

Good point.

[Welsh cake]

We return back to the default state of oblivion. Its the only thing I am certain about.

Its pretty much the unwritten fact humanity refuses to accept while its currently alive. Shows our immature our species as a whole is.

You dont find it sad your consciousness and expirences and memories will end, be gone and like they never happened?

No. I've embraced the void of oblivion every time I go into a deep dreamless sleep or required sedatives for post-operations. It was marvellous how simple and profound no longer experiencing anything and briefly becoming nothing again was. Time... space... reality... they were all meaningless. The only thing that perplexes me is why did the chaos and error of our existence, our consciousness, come to be in the first instance? Why did those experiences and memories ever have to happen at all is the confusion...

[constantgamer247]

No. I've embraced the void of oblivion every time I go into a deep dreamless sleep or required sedatives for post-operations. It was marvellous how simple and profound no longer experiencing anything and briefly becoming nothing again was. Time... space... reality... they were all meaningless. The only thing that perplexes me is why did the chaos and error of our existence, our consciousness, come to be in the first instance? Why did those experiences and memories ever have to happen at all is the confusion...

Thank you for your reply.
That is some really good insight. It is probably not going to be as bad as I fear, just sad it has to happen. I like the mark twain quote about death; I was dead for thousands of years and it didnt bother me in the slightest. (Or something like that).

[Norfolk And Chance]

There is currently no way of knowing what occurs after death.

It seems that people stay dead.

I tend to agree with your assessment, but I make no assertions, as I have no experience on the subject.

I'm firmly in the Mark Twain camp on this one, basically death is highly likely to be the same as non existence - and of course we've all not existed before, so you could suggest we have experience.

[constantgamer247]

Defining death as a lack of perception seems to make my brain grasp it better; my thoughts are more calm with this idea. Still sad about the fact that my existence has to come to an end and my memory has to be deleted, but I would like to be able to cope with this and find a way for it to be a positive force in my life. Lots of atheists who are assured in their beliefs of death seems to have enjoyed their lives better, or at least there are lots of quotes that make it seem so; mark twain, carl sagan and others.

Currently I think this fear acts out and plays up when ever I have extreme stress, anxiety or just a mile stone in my life. Most people cry at graduations. I'm just the kid too depressed to go march at the graduation because I'm having the realizations that 1/4 of my life is over and that it went too damn quickly even though I enjoy every day. I would like this fear under control so I can continue to enjoy every day until the last one.

I'm also probably creating a bad mental setting and making this seem a lot worse than it is. Ultimately no matter how or when I die, I won't even know it ~_~ that is a bit of a puzzling thought.

I did look into visiting a shrink. I biked to a place Friday but I think he moved; building looked closed down. Phoned another shrink Saturday and left a message. I'm going to phone back Monday.

[Norfolk And Chance]

I think most of us might have grappled with the feelings that you currently have, I know I did. What helped me come to terms with it, is that death is natural as well as being the great equaliser - we simply can't avoid it, and the fact that everybody dies means that nobody is getting away with something you're not.

The best bit is that all christians, muslims etc just cease to exist like the rest of us, which to be honest is fucking hilarious. Wasting all that life trying to please an imaginary being, doing without some pleasures so they get it in heaven, only for it to be lights out when they croak. Yep, hilarious!