Having nightmares
September 1, 2013 at 10:08 pm
(This post was last modified: September 1, 2013 at 10:09 pm by Something completely different.)
I think I have mentioned it a couple of times before, I suffer from nightmares which keep reapearing under different circumstances. In most of them I relive some unfortunate events from my childhood. My father who had a horrific childhood with a really horrible father himself suffers from the same problem. But unlike him mine are not so bad that I wake up screaming or at least I dont scream. I mostly wake up somewhat arround midnight or 2 am, covered in sweat, grasping for air and in some circumstances still affraid. People who have slept in the same bed with me have told me that I sometimes start talking in a begging way and that I sometimes start kicking and slapping arround with my hands and feet a few moments before I wake up.
I never undertook any kind of professional therapeutic effort to somehow deal with this problem of mine. I think I simply got use to it and that the incidents simply became less as my living conditions betterd. When this problem started when I was arround 15 years old it catapulted me into a really bad situation. I was so affraid that I refused to go sleeping and often lay in bed awake for hours. Often simply falling asleep after one or two days without sleep out of pure exhaustion. In recent years they have become less and less and only appear when I find myself in a state of depression, which can happen once every 2 months or once every month for a couple of days or a week. When it happens (like in the past 2 days) I usualy dont stay in bed very long, I get up very early and hardly sleep 4 hours. And continue life without trying to bother with this at all. After all, no one remembers ones sleep during the usual path of the day anyway.
I have no interest at all in having this problem professionaly treated and I am pritty much aware of what caused it. Lots of people have nightmares in which they revisit more or less traumatising events. I have no interest in revisiting those events by talking them over, but I would be interested in knowing if I am the only one here with such a problem and how you manage it.
I never undertook any kind of professional therapeutic effort to somehow deal with this problem of mine. I think I simply got use to it and that the incidents simply became less as my living conditions betterd. When this problem started when I was arround 15 years old it catapulted me into a really bad situation. I was so affraid that I refused to go sleeping and often lay in bed awake for hours. Often simply falling asleep after one or two days without sleep out of pure exhaustion. In recent years they have become less and less and only appear when I find myself in a state of depression, which can happen once every 2 months or once every month for a couple of days or a week. When it happens (like in the past 2 days) I usualy dont stay in bed very long, I get up very early and hardly sleep 4 hours. And continue life without trying to bother with this at all. After all, no one remembers ones sleep during the usual path of the day anyway.
I have no interest at all in having this problem professionaly treated and I am pritty much aware of what caused it. Lots of people have nightmares in which they revisit more or less traumatising events. I have no interest in revisiting those events by talking them over, but I would be interested in knowing if I am the only one here with such a problem and how you manage it.
