Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[SteelCurtain]

Thanks you guys

Is this the bebe child you were dating?

If so, Imma drive through and smack some sense into him. If he is a larger chap, I shall have a stern conversation with him instead.

[Joods]

CIJS -

It was a shitty thing that was done. But I will not worry about it anymore. Life will go on and so will I.

[J a c k]

Thanks you guys

I can't get over your posts. I sincerely don't wish for anyone not even a speck of what I've felt. When you say you feel there's something wrong with you, this really tugs at me. Feelings like these are what keep us oppressed. It's not on you that douches behave the way they do. You don't deserve it. You're worth so much more. I'm not even saying this as a friend, because you and I aren't even close. I'm saying this as an observer and as a woman. As a human. As someone who understands. As someone who felt your pain when I read your posts. Please don't stay in a place where you're not thriving and being happy and committed to joy. Don't settle for just company. Sometimes solitude is better. I stayed and it has taken all my energy and air to get back up after leaving. Just yesterday I got home at night to my ex parked outside my home waiting for me to see why I wasn't home when he knocked and didn't answer when he called. For a moment I began to explain myself and then it hit me. I'm not his pet. Not his possession. Not his own. I'm my own person. I make the decisions. I will not render justifications for my doings. My body. My time. My space. My home. Girl, it's not you. It's him. Please don't be like me and let him spend your years away. My heart is heavy with sadness for your sadness. I mean this wholeheartedly. I wish I could show you just how much I feel it and how I can't for a second judge you no matter what you end up doing. I'd be a hypocrite if I did. Take care of yourself, girl. You're worth a lot.

[Losty]

You make me cry, Ivy. Thank you <3

[J a c k]

[Joods]

Losty
Ivy

Both of you ladies are so wonderful. The last few posts were so deep. So deep that I too can relate and I get it. Reading every word, Ivy, I felt it all. I resonated with all of it. I too, have been there. Thank you for posting that. Even though it was for Losty, I feel it was for me too, in a way. Hugs to both of you.

[J a c k]

Losty
Ivy    

Both of you ladies are so wonderful. The last few posts were so deep. So deep that I too can relate and I get it. Reading every word, Ivy, I felt it all. I resonated with all of it. I too, have been there. Thank you for posting that. Even though it was for Losty, I feel it was for me too, in a way. Hugs to both of you.

Honey, it's for all of us.

Hugs to both of you.

[Joods]

CIJS - I feel... I don't know exactly how I feel. Maybe used in a way? Led on? Definitely lied to. Not quite sure how to process all of the shit that happened today. And it wasn't much. Just a couple of questions and a few poorly worded pathetic sounding insults that made me laugh more than anything.

Oh... and the threat? Understand now, honey, that I control more in my house than you know. Your attempt to discredit me in my own house got nipped in the bud within minutes of you stating your intentions. You may have issues in your house, sweetie, but don't you dare bring your drama into mine. For just as much as you were lied to, so was I.

I'm actually in a better place mentally NOW, than before when I wasn't sure if participating was the right thing to do. There were too many unknowns before. But now, it's over and done with and I'm okay with it all though because it helped me realize that trust is earned and I gave my trust away too easily. Not anymore though. Just one more life lesson to be learned as I go along waiting for the day I die.

And in case you're reading because of some strange inability to keep prying elsewhere now that you no longer have access to what you did before - my flabby self did just fine when it mattered. And since I know you've been visiting a number of times today - I have my ways of knowing things. Coming from a mafia family has its perks now and again because I learned a few tips and tricks way back when.

Ciao.

[pocaracas]

Coming from a mafia family has its perks now and again because I learned a few tips and tricks way back when.

You don't mess with the mafia!

We got your back, Nymph!
Who do you think we should lynch?

[Joods]

No lynching necessary, however, I've learned the fine art of acquiring information from not-so-typical sources.