Hello!

[SnoopSqueak]

Hello!

I was raised southern baptist.

I am existentially distraught to see christofascism still alive and well, and the average person pretending that anyone is entitled to false (and therefore deadly) beliefs.

Innocent people are dying for the lies others tell. Lies protect lies. I am glad to see communities like this one standing up for life and the truth that defines us all.

I worked as a web developer after graduating from a Missouri university in 2014. I am currently unemployed and deeply concerned about the state of the world.

You can learn more about me by following the links in my signature. If you have anything you would like me to read, highlight, or respond to in a video, let me know. I enjoy video games, music, and more, if I enjoy anything at all. Often I don't; my life has never been worth living, I have been suicidal for as long as I can remember. I remain here in suffering only because I am too scared to end it.

My abusive christian parents are to blame, but they scapegoat me for their violent mistakes. They believe they are going to heaven for hitting children, for psychologically torturing me, my brothers, and more. They are still spreading the abuse, no one is stopping them.

I hope to escape the bible belt soon, but options are limited. I am unsure whether I will survive this year.

More lives are being lost for selfish, stupid hate every single day. Love is honest. Please defend truth at all costs. Thank you for reading.

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Link removed from signature due to our 30/30 rule and advertising rule.

[Nay_Sayer]

Howdy, welcome.

Have you done any searching atheist/secular support groups in your state?

If anything else this is a safe place.

[The Grand Nudger]

Sounds rough, welcome aboard.

[SnoopSqueak]

Have you done any searching atheist/secular support groups in your state?

Not much. I have foundational trust issues. I trusted people I believed to be my friends for many years, but they did not support me when I needed them most. I am still in Missouri for now, unfortunately.

My links were removed even though I am not advertising anything. Search my username to find my website and YouTube channel.

Here is the song I wrote about my abusive parents, I hope it's okay to share. I am not selling anything nor do I make ad revenue.

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Link removed. Please refer to the 30/30 rule

[Nay_Sayer]

Have you done any searching atheist/secular support groups in your state?

Not much. I have foundational trust issues. I trusted people I believed to be my friends for many years, but they did not support me when I needed them most. I am still in Missouri for now, unfortunately.

My links were removed even though I am not advertising anything. Search my username to find my website and YouTube channel.

Here is the song I wrote about my abusive parents, I hope it's okay to share. I am not selling anything nor do I make ad revenue.

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Link removed. Please refer to the 30/30 rule

It's fine to share once you have posted enough.  It's a general rule to prevent spam.

I'm sorry you had awful parents, Hopefully you can find some people you do trust. Wether it's in real life or in online forums.

[BrianSoddingBoru4]

Have you done any searching atheist/secular support groups in your state?

Not much. I have foundational trust issues. I trusted people I believed to be my friends for many years, but they did not support me when I needed them most. I am still in Missouri for now, unfortunately.

My links were removed even though I am not advertising anything. Search my username to find my website and YouTube channel.

Here is the song I wrote about my abusive parents, I hope it's okay to share. I am not selling anything nor do I make ad revenue.

Moderator Notice
Link removed. Please refer to the 30/30 rule

This is advertising. Going forward, if you’re uncertain about whether to post something, you can ask in the ‘Questions for Staff’ forum. Your questions and responses will be visible only to yourself and staff members.

In the meantime, welcome aboard!

Boru

[SnoopSqueak]

"Please refer to the 30/30 rule"
"It's a general rule to prevent spam."
"New members must make 30 posts and be a member for 30 days before they are allowed to post external content, such as links, images, or videos."

So I am incentivized to spam 30 posts before I can link to genuine content about myself? This seems backwards.

"This is advertising."

What am I advertising? My own life's story? Am I supposed to pretend I am not a person until I hit the magic number of posts? What should I post about in the meantime? What is the acceptable way to introduce myself? How much of me must I censor before my presence is tolerated? Can I copy the contents of a Reddit comment I made before I was banned from there? It was written for the "Why did you leave christianity?" megathread. I was banned for debating christians in a sub dedicated to debating christians.

In the meantime, welcome aboard!

Thank you, though I do not feel welcome. I feel I am being silenced and erased again. I feel existentially threatened from being treated unfairly my whole life, and it keeps happening. I often wish I was dead, but I'm too scared to do it. I am also tired of harmful assumptions, so I will try to get ahead of at least one: I have tried three different therapists, all of them made things worse in their own way. Do not suggest I try another unless you are willing to pay for it. I think things are worse than most people realize, and backwards yet common ideas like "everyone is entitled to their beliefs" sustain abusive systems.

My own parents hurt me and called it "love," and it seems the whole world would rather pretend I do not exist instead of acknowledging how bad things are so we can actually start to change for the better. It is partly why I am unable to trust anybody, people regularly treat me like I've done something wrong when I did not ask to be born and specifically asked not to be abused. I am furious at every person who enables my suffering, and I am terrified on behalf of the untold number of people who have it worse than I do, innocent people hurting and dying every day for the careless shortsightedness of others. Physical child abuse is still legal in all 50 states. I am tired of being "hit" for behaving reasonably. I am frustrated by my inability to help anybody, myself included, and not for lack of trying.

[BrianSoddingBoru4]

"Please refer to the 30/30 rule"
"It's a general rule to prevent spam."
"New members must make 30 posts and be a member for 30 days before they are allowed to post external content, such as links, images, or videos."

So I am incentivized to spam 30 posts before I can link to genuine content about myself? This seems backwards.

"This is advertising."

What am I advertising? My own life's story? Am I supposed to pretend I am not a person until I hit the magic number of posts? What should I post about in the meantime? What is the acceptable way to introduce myself? How much of me must I censor before my presence is tolerated? Can I copy the contents of a Reddit comment I made before I was banned from there? It was written for the "Why did you leave christianity?" megathread. I was banned for debating christians in a sub dedicated to debating christians.

In the meantime, welcome aboard!

Thank you, though I do not feel welcome. I feel I am being silenced and erased again. I feel existentially threatened from being treated unfairly my whole life, and it keeps happening. I often wish I was dead, but I'm too scared to do it. I am also tired of harmful assumptions, so I will try to get ahead of at least one: I have tried three different therapists, all of them made things worse in their own way. Do not suggest I try another unless you are willing to pay for it. I think things are worse than most people realize, and backwards yet common ideas like "everyone is entitled to their beliefs" sustain abusive systems.

My own parents hurt me and called it "love," and it seems the whole world would rather pretend I do not exist instead of acknowledging how bad things are so we can actually start to change for the better. It is partly why I am unable to trust anybody, people regularly treat me like I've done something wrong when I did not ask to be born and specifically asked not to be abused. I am furious at every person who enables my suffering, and I am terrified on behalf of the untold number of people who have it worse than I do, innocent people hurting and dying every day for the careless shortsightedness of others. Physical child abuse is still legal in all 50 states. I am tired of being "hit" for behaving reasonably. I am frustrated by my inability to help anybody, myself included, and not for lack of trying.

Trust me, you’re not being picked on - this is not about you specifically. We cannot make exceptions based on your personal journey (tragic though it seems to be).

You are perfectly free to discuss your life, provided you do so without breaking the rules you agreed to follow when you signed up.

Boru

[Nay_Sayer]

This isn't that serious....

[AFTT47]

Welcome, SnoopSqueak! My welcome is from a fellow member. Like you, I have no power to create policy here. IMO, it's a decent place for an atheist to hang out.

I agree with you that the 30/30 rule is misguided. I'm convinced it has driven many good contributors away. The thing is, if you play in someone else's game, you have to play by their rules. That's just a fact of life we all have to make peace with. The 30/30 rule is definitely annoying but it doesn't last long. I believe you may find what you're looking for here if you put up with it for the requisite 30 days.