I guess the whole point is I need to AF less when I'm getting out of the house more. If I'm indoors and on my laptop I may as well post here as long as I help create a lovely forum atmosphere (it's my favorite thing to do on AF )

(September 23, 2016 at 6:44 am)Alasdair Ham Wrote:

(September 21, 2016 at 6:29 pm)*Deidre* Wrote: I wouldn't over think it. lol Just come on when you want, and stay off when you want. Just make sure you are staying off for the right reasons, and coming back for the right reasons. I've taken hiatuses before, and they are healthy to do now and again. Hugs and take care of yourself.

^^^

This. I'm gonna stop telling myself what to do or not do and just be myself

That's the spirit! 

Sigh. Gonna try to leave again. I'm gonna leave AF and just hope things will be okay.

Bye my friends. All my friends know who I am.

Goodbye.

Lol that didn't last long did it. Looks like I'm basically gonna do what Deidre recommends.

I fit in so well with people on Wrong Planet. But this is still my favorite forum and the vast majority of my friends are here.

Also something about atheist forums attracts smart people.

ETA: And obviously this is the best of the atheist forums. By far. By far.

(September 24, 2016 at 1:33 pm)Alasdair Ham Wrote: Lol that didn't last long did it. Looks like I'm basically gonna do what Deidre recommends.

If it helps any, many people go through this ...IRL and online. Sometimes, we just need a break from certain people, groups, organizations, forums...it's a natural thing. Don't feel bad about it, so just go with whatever you're feeling.  And if it comes down to needing to avoid certain people who trigger you, then just avoid them, until you heal. 

"The spaces in between
leave room for you and I to grow."

I try too hard. I'm sorry about all my failures to follow through with my behavior. I'm a mess. My positivity is gone now.

I still love everyone on AF, I just think I need to stop trying.

Oh I'm keeping all my explicit promises though. But I don't need to be positive to do that. I just need to not break any of them.

I am sorry to everyone that I was unable to have the willpower to do this.

I feel so pathetic. I'll get around to taking a much needed break eventually. I really need to focus on RL and my health.

I'm on a waiting list for Aspergers Syndrome currently. I feel like such a fuck-up for not being able to pull myself away. Just don't compare me to you know who... you know? This is not a ragequit. I am not sure I can even do it. I'm so addicted to this place. I'll be okay though. I'm gonna try to stick to Skype and Facebook. Try. I don't know. So tempting to log in. I guess I don't have Staff responsibility now.

This was such a good idea. I really really wanted to do this I needed it I probably still do need it!!! My therapy was put on hold and I'm only just on the waiting list. Took fucking months.

Shit. Fuck knows if I'll be able to do it. NO PROMISES. I really sincerely meant this break when I made this thread. I'm sorry I'm such a let down

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I'm thinking of maybe.... playing Mafia when my ban ends (which is soon) but other than that trying to stop posting.