Facing Mortality, By Brian37 (AKA Brian James Rational Poet on FB and @Brianrrs37 on twitter.)

You didn't give up
Your body gave out
As thus old age
Will everyone

I was horrified
In the examination room
When they gave you the news
The infection was back

It took everything in me
To not scream
How unfair it was
For it to happen to you

You could have gone
Back up to Duke
To try get rid of it
But you refused

Years of fighting
All sorts of things
Stroke, cancer
Aneurysms too

But you knew
After they told you
No guarantees
After what you'd been through

You were not calling it quits
No, not one bit
Just accepting
The ride had to end

I was devistated
Witnessing your decision 
But I understood
After all I had witnessed

I screamed in my head
"NOT NOW, NOT EVER!"
But I knew nothing could
Delay the inevitable 

And now here it is
My first Novermber
Without you
Gone forever

I''ll miss
Our Thanksgiving dinner
The one I order
From the deli each year

Heating up the corn
And potatos
Turkey and football game
Who will win, who knows?

I don't care
If the Skins will loose
I don't have you this year
I'd rather have you.

My mom would always freak out if I didn't call her at our regular times. Sometimes my cell phone battery would die, and I would have to charge it. Today would have been no different. Today Ohio State played Michigan State starting at 12 noon. I didn't get back home until way after that. There were a couple times in the past where I missed calling her where she thought of making a welfare call to the police. Point being, she loved me and today would have been no different. This poem is yet another ode to her love for me. 

I Would Be, By Brian37 (AKA Brian37 on FB and @Brianrs37 on twitter).
 
I would be
If you were still here
This Novermber 11th
Not with you but near
 
Calling you late
To explain
Why I missed
The beggining of the game
 
You'd have called me
In the morning
I'd let you know
I went out shopping
 
But at 12pm
I'd run into
Things I did not
Expect to
 
Long lines at Walmart
Getting a late start
Leaving my beer
At Food Lion in my shoping cart
 
Having to go back
To retreave it
Wondering if
Someone stole it
 
And I was not home
At the begining of the game
Your alma mater 
Ohio State about to begin the game
 
I could invison
You're desperate call
Where the hell is he?
Michigan State in your shoe.
 
I know you
You wouldn't know what to do
I'm not at home
To converse with you
 
But I got home
In the second quarter
To see J.T. 
Had it all in order
 
I know you
You'd think I was murdered
When I don't call you on time
When you were worried
 
I wish you were still here
So I could call you
It was a rout for Ohio
A smile for you
 
It is a big shoe
You did fill
A teacher for all
The Buckeyes wont fall
 
I miss you
I love you Mom
I miss your calls
When the game is on.

Ohio State playing again today. I cant tell you how much I miss either watching those games with mom or calling her up after a score or having her call me.

J.T. should make it to the NFL. That is their QB.

I really hate the fact I cant catch my spelling errors, no mater how much I try.

Thursday unfortunately marks my first Thanksgiving without my mom. Today marks the first Ohio State vs Michigan rivalry game without her. Ohio State is where she graduated and got her college teaching degree. It is a long shot that Ohio will make the playoffs, but a win will still feel good regardless.

Ohio won today, but it was very close for most of the game. Still it is bittersweet no matter what.

J.T.  went out on a knee injury and a guy named Haskins, a freshman filled in as QB and did nicely. Still far too close for my comfort. My mom if alive would have been biting her nails just like she would have if it were  Redskins/ Cowboys game. But The Buckeyes won a division game today and I know it would please her

OHIO 31 - Michigan 20. Mom would be smiling!

(November 25, 2017 at 12:06 pm)Brian37 Wrote: Thursday unfortunately marks my first Thanksgiving without my mom. Today marks the first Ohio State vs Michigan rivalry game without her. Ohio State is where she graduated and got her college teaching degree. It is a long shot that Ohio will make the playoffs, but a win will still feel good regardless.

Sorry to hear this, hope you are ok.

Obviously not. Death comes for us all and he hasn't been able to closure. Brian needs god.

(November 25, 2017 at 5:08 pm)Cod Wrote:

(November 25, 2017 at 12:06 pm)Brian37 Wrote: Thursday unfortunately marks my first Thanksgiving without my mom. Today marks the first Ohio State vs Michigan rivalry game without her. Ohio State is where she graduated and got her college teaching degree. It is a long shot that Ohio will make the playoffs, but a win will still feel good regardless.

Sorry to hear this, hope you are ok.

Mom died March 1rst, so it has been a while. NO, it is not anything you ever get over, but cope with and move on. Yea, I am ok, posting in this thread is my way of coping and memorializing her.

Buckeyes won today, and I know if she were still with me, she would be calling me, or we'd be watching the game together, and smiling. 

This is what she would be doing if she watched today's game. 

At any rate I am admiring your Mom more than you. It's something you have to let go. Being a dad, I fear more for my daughter's life than mine. Balance yourself.