I guess this is kind of a part 2 of my previous thread. but basically as i look back on my life i feel like 100% of my misery came because of other people. And i know society will step in with its cliche "its on you! you have to control how you react, etc" but as i look around it just seems like BS

ie: guys who get married and wife cheats and they hit her and then spend life in jail...if they never got involved with her they could be free right now.

then societies cliche steps in "oh well if you don't take a risk whats the point of living...besides its his fault he couldn't control himself"

though as I look around even people who have "successful" marriages, doesn't seem like its worth it.

and even in general when i look back on my life, whenever I felt sad its because of something someone else said or did to me, pretty much every single time.

Im getting older now and I live on my own and I feel a lot better. I dont even play any MMO online games anymore and hardly visit forums anymore, and I notice days where I keep to myself go pretty nicely. then i hop in a game or a forum, people start being mean to me and i start feeling depressed again.

i know a lot of people will just blame me, but i feel like I am better off keeping to myself and out of trouble. and if you guys knew me like 5 years ago you'd know i was as social as a golden retriever.

as i get older life in general just seems like shit to me. people are all the same pretty much with tiny differences, everything is pretty much the same shit. food all tastes the same, all the songs are about romance, and all the movies end the same pretty much. everything is the same.

but then people "oh but thats life!!...other people can make you happy too!" but that seems like bs to me, cus overall i get more upset from others and even when im struggling and ask someone for advice they just act condescending towards me, so i feel better off alone and find happiness with myself which i feel is better than being around others. recently i pretend that a metor came and killed everyone in the world and all the people working at grocery store etc are just robots (which in a way i always felt like others are robots cus no one seems to be alive IMO besides myself (see my previous thread) ) but im just hoping one day i will die sooner than later and i can stop existing.. otherwise if there is a god and he makes me live another life idk what ill do...but then again if a god has that much control there is nothing i can do but suffer

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i also remember the bob marley quote “The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.” - but i think im at a point where i feel like i am better off alone. especially with my mental illness i suffer enough by myself.

Shit happens. Some blame all the bad shit on the devil. Where as someone like me i blame dumb shit happening into idiots. All in all we all live in a world where shit unfortunately is going to happen. Some good things some bad things all in all it can the person who is doing terrible things is to be blamed but the best thing to do is stay clear of incoming shit.

(January 3, 2015 at 10:19 am)dyresand Wrote: Shit happens. Some blame all the bad shit on the devil. Where as someone like me i blame dumb shit happening into idiots. All in all we all live in a world where shit unfortunately is going to happen. Some good things some bad things all in all it can the person who is doing terrible things is to be blamed but the best thing to do is stay clear of incoming shit.

Yeah i guess thats similar to what im saying. im just really scared lately cus i feel exhausted from this life and i really hope as an atheist i can die and stop existing cus if i have to reincarnate or pretend to be happy in heaven that would be the ultimate hell.

yoda's quote ftw: “Soon will I rest, yes, forever sleep. Earned it I have. Twilight is upon me, soon night must fall.”

IIRC yoda died of old age.

(January 3, 2015 at 10:25 am)LastPoet Wrote: IIRC yoda died of old age.

yeah, thats what i mean. hoping i die soon of old age or just even in general if i got cancer or in a car accident, its all the same really. i just hope i can die then stop existing. cus lot of people in christianforums saying that we are eternal beings and we dont stop existing after we die, and i just think thats really unfair i really want to stop existing, assuming that i actually do exist right now. how do we even know that any of us exist, what if we dont? cliche says "i think therefore i am!" but what if every thought we have is just information being processed somewhere else? from the most primitive to creative thoughts all to make us think we exist.

(January 3, 2015 at 10:21 am)Jextin Wrote:

(January 3, 2015 at 10:19 am)dyresand Wrote: Shit happens. Some blame all the bad shit on the devil. Where as someone like me i blame dumb shit happening into idiots. All in all we all live in a world where shit unfortunately is going to happen. Some good things some bad things all in all it can the person who is doing terrible things is to be blamed but the best thing to do is stay clear of incoming shit.

Yeah i guess thats similar to what im saying. im just really scared lately cus i feel exhausted from this life and i really hope as an atheist i can die and stop existing cus if i have to reincarnate or pretend to be happy in heaven that would be the ultimate hell.

yoda's quote ftw: “Soon will I rest, yes, forever sleep. Earned it I have. Twilight is upon me, soon night must fall.”

You stop...existing when you die.. physically your still there just your brain and the currents in your brain that make you you will end and then you consciously won't exist anymore.

(January 3, 2015 at 10:34 am)dyresand Wrote:

(January 3, 2015 at 10:21 am)Jextin Wrote: Yeah i guess thats similar to what im saying. im just really scared lately cus i feel exhausted from this life and i really hope as an atheist i can die and stop existing cus if i have to reincarnate or pretend to be happy in heaven that would be the ultimate hell.

yoda's quote ftw: “Soon will I rest, yes, forever sleep. Earned it I have. Twilight is upon me, soon night must fall.”

You stop...existing when you die.. physically your still there just your brain and the currents in your brain that make you you will end and then you consciously won't exist anymore.

yeah thats what im hoping for too, i just hope theres no surprises and i dont find myself in another life or world or something. cus i talked to several pastors in my life from various religions and they say i cant stop existing even if i want to...but im hoping they are wrong its just hard to believe so many people in the world believe in god are wrong.

but its the most comforting to me to know that my heartbeat is a timer and when its over all my pain and suffering will end everyday is one less day to live. 2014 will never come again for me, time and tide wait for none...every second continues to pass no matter what and is one less second i have to live

i also been scared what if years from now the government makes an injection and calls it a flu shot and makes humans live forever and turn me into a mining bot or something. thats why i NEVER get flu shot. u guys see the video about the girl who got like problems in her nervous system and starts twitching and stuff involuntarily? that whole scenario was predetermined.

but honesly i think within the coming years ill die and then NO ONE will be able to stop me from not existing.

Mozart? That you?

So...the minute somebody mentions that they just want to die is when we say "Hey, not a clinic" - and then turn it into a jokethread, right?

I want to die too, the world has lots of horrible people in it and suffering I am powerless to prevent. All we can do is try and focus on the good, and see what little we can do to help.

I sympathise with everyone else who feels the same despair.