Still struggling.

[LastPoet]

I fucking hate this family so much. My brother will not stop coming in here bothering me. He comes in here saying "I know you aren't really an atheist, you're doing it for attention." or "You're not evaluating both sides of the story, read the bible."

I push him out of my room and have to push the door closed and lock my entire family out to keep him away.
Not only that by my anxiety is getting worse, I have an appointment today, which I am uncertain if I am even gonna go because my mom "forgets" to take me.

Next time your brother enters the room with that talk, jus say that you are his sibling, is his religion so blinding that stops siblings from helping eachother and talk about more important stuff?

[Socratic Meth Head]

I just went to the appointment. Things went okay. I've explained to him my old medicine wasn't working and he wants future appointments before he puts me on stronger meds.

[robvalue]

That's really good! Well done

[Socratic Meth Head]

I hate my family more... My brother logged on my computer without my permission.

He found this post and tried to tell me that god led him to believe I'm not confident that there isn't a god. I told him he found my thread and I caught him lying about god, he told me to listen to the doubts and I told him "It's not really doubts that much... It's more like anxiety." I've never told him I have OCD and he is now telling me that I don't have it, (even though my therapist says I do and I am going to see a psychologist soon.)
He also found my porn and stuff and is trying to blackmail me.

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I can't wait for him to go off and tell the whole family so it will be like them trying to convert me or something 24/7

[KevinM1]

Your brother is a petulant little asshole who, if he continues to act this way when out in the real world, will likely get his ass beat.

That said, you need to be smarter with how you engage in activity you wish to remain secret. Use the TOR web browser. Erase cookies and web history after every session. Create strong passwords that are unique for every site you regularly visit (a password manager like KeePass can both generate and store them for you). If you've saved any porn on your computer, password protect it, too.

Don't make it easy for them to find things you don't wish to see.

[robvalue]

Wow... your brother is a first class piece of shit.

If this is what "christian morality" produces, snooping around and invading privacy, why would you want any part of it?

It's sad even your brother is putting religion ahead of your relationship. Dollars to donuts it's just his insecurity with you being different, and he's bullying you. I went through that all my school life.

[Socratic Meth Head]

Your brother is a  petulant little asshole who, if he continues to act this way when out in the real world, will likely get his ass beat.

That said, you need to be smarter with how you engage in activity you wish to remain secret.  Use the TOR web browser.  Erase cookies and web history after every session.  Create strong  passwords that are unique for every site you regularly visit (a password manager like KeePass can both generate and store them for you).  If you've saved any porn on your computer, password protect it, too.

Don't make it easy for them to find things you don't wish to see.

I just got TOR, made a randomly generated password, and saved it under a google doc.
Don't know how to password protect files.

[KevinM1]

Your brother is a  petulant little asshole who, if he continues to act this way when out in the real world, will likely get his ass beat.

That said, you need to be smarter with how you engage in activity you wish to remain secret.  Use the TOR web browser.  Erase cookies and web history after every session.  Create strong  passwords that are unique for every site you regularly visit (a password manager like KeePass can both generate and store them for you).  If you've saved any porn on your computer, password protect it, too.

Don't make it easy for them to find things you don't wish to see.

I just got TOR, made a randomly generated password, and saved it under a google doc.
Don't know how to password protect files.

What operating system are you using?

[Socratic Meth Head]

I just got TOR, made a randomly generated password, and saved it under a google doc.
Don't know how to password protect files.

What operating system are you using?

Windows. I tried to use the encrypt file option. It is grayed out, I used regedit to change it but I couldn't.

[KevinM1]

Try this. It should (hopefully) work with Windows versions earlier than 10. http://www.laptopmag.com/articles/passwo...windows-10