Is Depression/Annnxiety from the Bullshit You Experience or are You Prone to it?

[Rhondazvous]

There have been times in my life when I’ve experienced extreme anxiety when someone insist that I do something that will place me in a vulnerable situation, or what I see as a vulnerable situation, and asks me to trust them. It may go back to when I was 4 and my grandfather’s friends took me on a roller coaster. My mother tells me I was nervous for day. .

Also, then I was little, my mother and them tried to make me take a shower in a tub where the mildew was so much that the corners were black. I’d cry and refuse to get in. I couldn’t explain my fear to them nor understand why people who’s supposed to love and protect me were trying to force me to get in. why did they ignore my distress?

I wouldn’t talk to a psychiatrist about my fear of heights because he might try to force me face those fears. I didn’t live to be 50 years old by facing all my fears.
It’s hard to say how much of what I feel sometimes is genetic and how much is situational. I might have to live my life all over with the same genetic and chemical makeup but without the external stressors and see what happens.

Of course, I’d have to go live on a different planet where there are no stressors.