Still struggling.

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That's good, you're concentrating on the evidence. If you keep that in mind, you can't go far wrong. It will always back up the side of science and reason, and never religious woo. I appreciate how hard it is to keep your head when your emotions are fighting against you, and your OCD is feeding off it. But you're doing so well already, and it's still early days. Given time, you're bound to find it a bit easier.

Although evolution is a stone cold scientific fact, keep this in mind:

Even if evolution was "wrong", that in no way means any other explanation is valid if it doesn't have its own evidence. All we would have is a situation where we don't know, and we would try and form new and better models based on the available evidence. It does not default to magical stories based on fictional texts, with nothing to back it up but long standing oral myths. Seriously, if you picked up one of those books and you'd never heard anything about it before, you'd probably put it down laughing before even finishing genesis.

The idea that it must be "evolution" or else it's "creation and god and specifically the christian god" is a massive false dichotomy (a logical fallacy as detailed on my website here.)