Still struggling.

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I think Ignor was being serious, and I have to say, it's an option worth considering. It's really sad that your family show you so little respect.

It seems like the short term plan is to get through the next few years however you can until you can move away. Pretending and going through the motions just to get some peace is, I believe, a viable option. Anyone can say they're a Christian. Only you can know whether they would buy it, though.

They're being so ridiculously harsh that your other options are seeming limited. I'm thinking:

"The more you push me around and disrespect my rights to believe what I want while I'm under your roof, the less contact I'll have with you once I move out."

My parents did something very similar, although not regarding religion. They blew it, they treated me like crap while I was "at their mercy" and now I barely talk to them.

The other possibility is to seek advice from your school or anywhere else impartial you can get to. Certainly your mother blocking your appointments is grounds for you to receive support, and maybe you can add to that being hounded all the time just for not sharing their beliefs. Or even contacting a helpline for abused children.

I'm really sorry you have to go through this. Religion is poison to the mind and your family has let it rot their most basic values in taking care of you.

One more extreme idea: "If you don't stop hassling me, I'm going to become a Muslim."