Still struggling.

[MTL]

She also says "You just don't believe because you don't want consequences."

Yeah, I got that one, repeatedly, too.


Finally, one day, I held up my hands and told them to stop saying this to me,

"Because," I said,

"let's put it this way:


"Let's assume that you are right, and that there IS a God, and there IS a Hell,
and that I am on my way to burning in the Lake of Fire for all Eternity....well, I ACCEPT THAT.

"I will 100% accept Hell as my destiny, if that is the reality.

"Because I don't deem your God worthy of worship,
even if it was proven beyond all doubt, tomorrow, that He DOES exist. 

"Moreover, I think it is laughably shallow and tawdry that you profess to worship God because you "love" Him,
when in reality you are only worshiping Him because you want to save your own bacon.

"Would you still  love God so much if He commanded you to worship Him
SIMPLY because He is Almighty and deserving of your worship,
even though He deemed you irretrievably wretched and undeserving of His Salvation,
and said that the only right thing would be to let you burn in Hell, anyway?

"Yet, if He were to say such a thing, it WOULD, after all, be true, wouldn't it?

"What kind of God needs to threaten puny humans into allegiance?
Or, conversely, bribe them with sugary promises of Heaven?

"Why does your Almighty God care about the worship of humans, at all?

"And, I think it's equally ludicrous that God professes to love you,
...yet will allow you to burn in Hell if you don't cave in to His bullying tactics.

"If you really love someone, you would use your power to save them from such a destiny,
even if they didn't do what you wanted them to.

"So stop with this nonsense that I am simply trying to avoid consequences.

"If Hell is my destiny, at the hands of your monstrous God.
I would gladly accept it with open arms...
...better that, than to betray my own sense of right."


NOTE:
I strenuously recommend saying this stuff only AFTER you are moved out on your own
and are firmly independent.